I had fun but on the other hand there are some problems.

Friday was an enjoyable day with Teck Han, He Qiang, Sin Ye, Koen, Jac, Wei Lin jiejie and ge ge men.. We went to woodlands swimming complex to have a swim.. Before that i met Tweety first than we went to meet Mr Penguin to have lunch.. Enjoyable.. same thing tweety was saying his cold jokes till i can feel north pole.. But if people like him exist in my life, it is quite a very enjoyable time because people who can make u smile everyday is a very good thing especially when u are unhappy or stress. We went to swim a few laps and i was penting like hell cause im so tired and i start to cramp.. after that we went to ASTONS! But those GEGE JIEJIE men dont let me eat those fried western food! But they let me eat Spaghetti! WEE! and we had chocolates for children's day.. COOL! i wish everyday is like this.. I didnt regret going with them though i have second thoughts before.. the feeling was different before and after i went.. Before i wanna go, i felt quite extra to go but after i went, i felt normal and very happy cause they take care of ppl younger than them. good thing..

Next, because going out with GEGE JIEJIE men, i did not go HARI RAYA with my friends, i didnt know they were unhappy and angry with me! They didnt show but i know! u all want like that than so be it.. i go nothing to say, still BFF somemore.. seriously i didnt know this 2 things turn out differently, i guess i got to move on with life, i got no time for children's play. Im having so many problems alrdy i dun wish to add on problems anymore, if u all are so called BFF than understand how i feel and things changes after we graduate, i have co too and u all know co is my priority which means it refers to my CO friends too..

Yesterday, me hui ying, eville, chris, and gang went for BBQ last night. Shocking thing was someone was at our pit when we reached.. hui ying and eville was quite unhappy.. But we cooled down adter that.. we had a nice BBQ and thanks to Eville BBQing all the food.. Surprisingly, there were no streets light on, so i called fan shu jie jie which i think she quite pro at all this and she gave me the hotline and we called and the person say will fix in less than 2 HOURS! omg! haha so we used candle to BBQ.. it was quite romantic! haha.. had fun and i drank a 40% vodka with coke.. omg i first sip sucks, bu subsequently became nice.. aha think i will try again next time.. LOL..

This holiday my life is filled with enjoyment! i love it! thanks to the ppl around me making me living life to the fullest. I appreciate every moment with them.. and Tweety makes me happy everytime, no doubt he is with his stress too.. thanks to those Ge GE jiejie men taking care of me.. EVERYONE JIA YOU!

Happiness..

What's HAPPINESS? i dun find any HAPPINESS now.. Yes i admit there is, but it comes and go, meaning its very temporily. I dunno what to say, but i am always stuck between friends who have cliques. When i join in, i feel as if im the odd one out. I do not know what i should do, i wish i have my own cliques now so i won't feel that way. I can understand that those people who have cliques don't wish others to like cut in or join or whatsoever.. I can understand that, that's why i don't know where to find happiness. Friends that i made always have own clique.. that ANNOYS me.. Feel so tired.. CO is like one of them, i shall not name but it is a fact why everyone is not very close together because of the cliques and stuff.. nvm talking about it makes me tired too..

Well, i have been sick for the past 1-2 weeks, great thing was i vomitted yesterday in school after eating mac the night before i slept. so my stomach wasn't in a good condition and i ate a plate of fruits for dinner. think i will get well soon..

I seriously think that i am a perfectionist, i want everything to be perfect. If i am working i also expect it to be perfect, i don't like it when people slack and stuff.. Slack awhile is fine, but too much seriously why do you even want to work in the first place? I was quite disappointed, but i shan't say it. Everything will have to be experienced in order to know.

Actually i have nothing to blog about alrdy cause i got no energy.. i feel very tired.. tired tired...
i hope things will change gradually..

I'm too sensitive..

Everytime i see the ppl around me not in good situation meaning angry, sad, frown or whatsoever that is not normal i get very upset cause its my own problem bah.. partly i will think first is if the person is angry with me, upset with me or what.. another part is when they are sad of course i sad la.. Maybe i think too much.. so i should stop being so sensitive.. And maybe sometimes my mouth should close.. maybe sometimes words i say out may hurt other ppl.. i know myself cause after say liao than realise.. stupid mouth..
I just want the people around me to be happy and im satisfied.. Thats the most satisfying things on earth which keeps my live going on and on.. without close friends or friends i wont survive that long..
I guess its i lack of security bah.. heard to say that those who grew up with single parents are always like that.. and me is i got no mother love so maybe like that sensitive or sth.. And i got no siblings so i treat my close friends like siblings.. I dunno la.. Just want to be DOTE and be Guai and love by ppl.. Thats what i can ask for.. and most is happiness.. Since i cant get it from my family i might as well get it from friends.. Wonder why sometimes i born in this family.. I think too many things happen during this period.. i need a break..

So long never really update my blog liao...

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY YUN DI NAI NAI..

This few times celebrated co friends birthday.. wonderful time.. it was my nai nai, Yun Di's birthday and cello bass ppl celebrated for her.. haha no worries but i make up for her by celebrating at marvellous cream at ion.. So me, cheryl, yue ling, yun di, koen and teck han done a card for her.. but was XL in size.. me chicken and ah yi decorated the board first.. so maria, koen, teck han, lao fo ye and eTC wrote wishes for her.. Nai Nai sorry.. the celebration not so like celebration only can eat ice cream haha! was busy that 2 weeks.. But i love the drawing of mine.. haha piglet..

Next, it is Chien Wui's birthday.. happy 20th birthday CHIEN WUI!! celebrated her birthday when im like half dead..cause the day before me, lfy, biao ge and nai nai go chicken house stay overnight.. we watched 2 movies till 4am and go back and dye hair and slept at 5.30.. next day woke up at around 8 and get rdy for combine.. so tired!! Had a wonderful day because it was filled with joy and laughter althought aftr ZLS left and combine still goes on i was angry cause of messiness.. so tired!! can wait for food until sleep...

Had a day where me chicken nai nai and biao ge but before that was with a whole gang of co peeps to watch despicable me.. after that alot of them headed back home.. so the 4 of us continue watch the 2nd movie.. we watched hot tub machine.. WTH M18 SHOW! i thought it was nothing.. but than so many R rated scenes lla.. i dunno what happen to me i kept on laughing like a mad guy.. haha! but had fun...

Shall put some conclusions here.. ME! i like to celebrate with a bunch of ppl if there is any celebations or go out.. i dun like to outcast ppl! its very not good.. for example if im going out with chicken i will call my nai nai and alot alot of ppl out out tgt.. celebrate birthday also.. haha more the merrier so that the birthday boy or girl is super happy... thats part of friendship.. Realized when i stepped into poly its so different from secondary school.. the generous way, polite, kind, taking care is missing.. i see selfishness especially.. i wont allow that if im present.. Even if u are my bestest friend or whatsoever.. TAKE NOTE PLUCKING ppl! I WILL MAKE U LIVE AND BONDED AGAIN.. I SWEAR! our tee shirt is on the way.. WAHAHA!

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This i thought i wont cry anymore... But why must i cry again! Stop being some useless idiot! STop Being An Ass And Stop Crying.. I dont want to be back to my old self again.. But To me the ppl that i love are so impt to me that u cannot leave 1 inch away from me.. Nvm.. suan le.. say so much also no use

The Last Method To Vent Out My Unhappiness

Eventually, i shall resort to the last method, blogging... Haixx.d. Dam unhappy these few days... it's like my olden days again.. So not me this few days.. Feel so upset and angry and ARGH!
Why?! What happen to me?? Im just sick and tired of everything! HOPE u can get out of my life! Seriously!
today had co performance, but i dont know whether its performance or not, we so not up to standard even i myself is not prepared.. so freaking disappointed! Than NO TEAM WORK! ATTITUDE FAIL! DISCIPLINE NEGATIVE MARKS! I dunno what to say.. one for all all for one.. Cant change it so fast i guess time is needed..
After performance, went another duet rehearsal with guo chuan to rehearse at the japanese thingy.. Still ok than tomorrow have performance liao.. So went back to co room carrying the dam heavy YQ.. Went back co room dam hungry but suddenly remember i havent submit the letter of absence online.. So ask Yun Di help me sign in.. STupid internet lag this time! Than Some ppl make noise say hungry wan go eat go eat when im not done! FUCK! So fed up that until i dont want eat and after they left, i filled up the form myself and i was very fast miracle! Faster sign out and went sectionals with growling stomach dam pissed! reach liao See YQ havent open everytime must wait for ppl to open and take out for them! WTF! My hand is gonna be injured soon.. I cant take it anymore!
Friends are meant to wait for each other and not by caring your ownself! thats so selfish! i dun think u will see me do this to friends! humans are really selfish!!
I shall end my convo here.. boiling.. even worst!

Hello everyone!!

OH HI! It's been long ever since i blog again.. Many happenings this few months. So i stepped into a new environment with a new bunch of people in polytechnic. Started to miss all my fellow 5N1 classmates as well as my beloved teachers. I wonder how are they doing now although we had some outings but not everyone turned up. I had so much committment that im so busy everyday. Thus, i have less time giving it to my friends. Lets see some of these pictures that happend these few months. I shall post only my happiest time with NYPCO and my fellow 5N1 mates.

This was my outing with some percussion freak people.. We had lots of fun in toyRus... haha1 Extreme Fun although we are not kids anymore. =)

The one beside me is Zi Hui, she is my maid and i call her Maria.

The one beside her is Jing Wei, she's my second maid call Yati.

The one beside her is Siti. She is my pole dance doing all the sexy styles and scaring me..

The one at the right side of the picture her name is li hui, she's my friend got no name for her.. shall think of one.

This was like some random time we decided to go to the arcade near chicken's house at amk. So we had lots and lots of fun there!

I'll introduce the people in the picture.

The one in black her name is Cheryl but we call her chicken.

The one in white her name is Yun Doi. She's my nai nai in short. =)

This picture was taken at popeye at night hehe... My new Family Tree.. This was also a random outing after combine.. So decided to go for supper and we chiong for arcade but in the end closed.. so we went to watch mid-night horror movie.. hehha!!

Shall introduce 3 new people in this picture.

The one beside chicken is Zhen Xin and he's my "cousin" and so call "Mei Yong De Nan Ren"

The one behind him is Charis, she's one of my aunt.

The one beside her is Yue Ling, She is my Ah Yi and her son is Zhen Xin Thats why we are cousins! HAHAHAHA

aNyway i just upload this few only the rest next time than upload.. Right now its time to study my inorganic chemistry and my common test for that is tomorrow.. Luckily maths paper ended yesterday and i can do the questions normally.. HAHA ok bye blog see u tomorrow