I feel like T.T

I've had co practice.. Im super tired.. cause i went hiking with my 2 friends.. sper tiring.. after that i went to CC reach at 3pm all alone.. So i started to re-arrange the scores, and pack all the scores again.. pack till 6 plus.. chun xi came and thus help me.. than ZK and PJ and SHEENA and SHANNA came.. so i've got more helpers now.. really got to thank ZK alot.. though he's not part of CC but he still helps me.. i really appreciate it! thanks ZK! Today, of ytd was rather a long and tiring day due to hiking and co.. i got to run 3 times to fetch my guest players till my knees went wobbly.. but i beared.. i got no time to ZHAO DAI them so i kind of felt guilty.. haixx.. im super busy.. and tcher is like using the mike.. so disgracing la.. WTH... Today CO was strong but not strong enough so i hope the sectional training can really build up our power... WTF la i was super pissed when zhi hui said to me that tcher say today bass very weak.. WTF la!! zhi hui and i were like blasting out everything.. freak man! my blister already tore and it was last weeks blister stll not healed yet.. when he like that say i dam pek cik.. Right after practice everyone's like chatting and having fun, only me busy with all the papers.. facing all the dam papers and i cant talk to my friends from other places... i really dam fed up that i cant have fun anymore! This is the last time im doing all this... im not going to do the guest player thingy again.. it really can kill me... To prevent same story from going on, i guess after concert i will not go co so often liao.. i super tired liao.. i need to brush up on my yang qin in order to go NAC competition and other good CO's... this FEB i probably joining PA liao.. so i wont really care about TG liao.. but will still be responsible.. haix... im really tired.. i got no one to share a shoulder with.. sharing my duties.. im such a loner... haix... i wish i can really have fun talking to my friends from co and other co's instead of doing stupid things.. i wanna go back to my life!!!