ETeugene

虽然不甘心可是不能这个样子。要学会接受事实才能改变。我也了解不是什么事情都会顺利的。碰到挫折要学会面对以及接受。以后才能做大事。要改变别人有自己没有的优点才是对的。我会开始学更深因为我相信自己是有实力的！加油！没人支持就支持自己！

2011-01-20T17:47:00.004+08:00

还是不能不关心你们。希望老天爷保佑你们早日康复。

2011-01-20T09:26:00.001+08:00

每天只吃一餐不让两餐，为什么我会变成这个样子。我不甘心，越看越不顺眼。好胜是我，但我也有好的一面为什么要看缺点不看优点？我不明白私事更公事不能放在一起可是为什么还是有呢？太多不应该去想的事情了。我会到一天受不了，我用永远都不会回去。现在只剩自己一个。朋友也教我不要去相信任何人。

2011-01-19T17:12:00.005+08:00

2011-01-16T13:31:00.002+08:00

在等车的时候看见一辆罗列,很想走过去马路让它结束我的生命.. 对我来说活着是什么我也不知道了. 家里发生太多事了, 两个星期没回去这么多事情发生. 我撑不下去了.. 我很害怕孤独一个.. 很害怕.. 等车时一直流泪.. 我不知道要该这么做. 或许我爸不应该阻止她把我打掉.. 打掉就不会有现在.

我梦见我们在解决这件事, 解决完了真开心,但是醒来后才知道是一场梦.

2011-01-16T10:37:00.001+08:00

在也不重要了。

2011-01-13T22:43:00.001+08:00

Who Am I? where is the

2010-10-22T22:14:00.002+08:00

Life is always a challenge to me everytime i step into a new environment. Sometimes even though im in that environment for quite some time, i still feel challenges coming to me. Why do i keep emphasizing on friendship? Because the trust i have in my family has already been erased ever since i was young. No one at home know what is family nor know what is care. I've always been like like a stray kid always hanging outside with friends. Thus, maybe because expectations for family is lower and changes to higher expectations for friends. Reflection is what i always do if i feel something is wrong or i have done somthing wrong. I'm a person who like's to think a lot. But compared to last time, i am not so sensitive now but i still know i am because i am not 100% perfect. I'm able to keep unhappy things inside my heart without telling anyone and i can bear the pain myself. Sometimes putting a smile on my face doesn't mean that im happy. It's just that i didnt want to create the problem and i must bear with it.

This new environment i just could not take the fact that this environment is creating a lot of problems to me. After i step in, thought i will meet all wonderful people, but only half of them are wonderful. I dont feel any sense of belonging at all. Seriously, the sense of belonging means after i step in, i see cliques and cliques of people sticking together and im the odd one out. This feeling has been hanging out for the past 6 months and i beared with it. Now it is to the extend that i cannot take it anymore, im going to explode any sooner. Where is it? Where is the sense of belonging? I know at times i open my mouth nothing good comes out but im just merely joking and hope people will laugh and be happy. And sometimes to the extend i may say something which hurt people. But i do apologize and i reflect on my mistakes but sometimes i will just repeat them again. It's not on purpose and im just having fun with people. If i dont joke with people means i dont even wanna talk to that person or even make friends. i will just keep quiet. Thats why when im always high means im happy, if i dun talk much means im sad or angry.

I really dont know how to face these problems now. I'm in NYPCO and always at time, the feeling keep telling me to leave this place. ITs like "eugene, you dont belong here, leave!" why do i always feel that? i dont really like to outcast people because i know it's not nice. Why do i see these type of people then? I'm really tired, seriously! when can i find the happiness in CO? why?

To me friendship is something not everyone can do it, but i believe i can do it because i've experience alot before. After the Hari Raya incident whereby i went out with nypco peeps instead of my BFF's, i really felt quite down, it felt like i have lost 3 good friends because they ignore me for quite some time already and im really very sad about it. i really want to apologize to them, but im scared.

Friendship is something like if i want a drink but i havent reach the place to buy and i havent tell this friend what i wanna drink and when i reach the place, the drink is bought without telling the person. Its like automatic because i dunnid to know what the person says and i know what he or she wants. this is friendship. People who knows friendship well dont think of themselves more than others. they sacrifice for their loved friends. There's alot about friendship i have to learn and i know i have done some because friendship is all about feelings. I can feel if im part of it or im not. Because feelings always tells me though sometimes being oversensitive can lead to wrong feeling.. That i admit. Saying so much won't make things change either, just feel like giving up but there are people whom are encouraging me now and i really feel the love from these ppl especially tweety bird, been there for me when im sad or happy.. Wonderful..

In conclusion, i am someone who pursue things perfectly because im a perfectionist.

I had fun but on the other hand there are some problems.

2010-10-03T19:44:00.002+08:00

Friday was an enjoyable day with Teck Han, He Qiang, Sin Ye, Koen, Jac, Wei Lin jiejie and ge ge men.. We went to woodlands swimming complex to have a swim.. Before that i met Tweety first than we went to meet Mr Penguin to have lunch.. Enjoyable.. same thing tweety was saying his cold jokes till i can feel north pole.. But if people like him exist in my life, it is quite a very enjoyable time because people who can make u smile everyday is a very good thing especially when u are unhappy or stress. We went to swim a few laps and i was penting like hell cause im so tired and i start to cramp.. after that we went to ASTONS! But those GEGE JIEJIE men dont let me eat those fried western food! But they let me eat Spaghetti! WEE! and we had chocolates for children's day.. COOL! i wish everyday is like this.. I didnt regret going with them though i have second thoughts before.. the feeling was different before and after i went.. Before i wanna go, i felt quite extra to go but after i went, i felt normal and very happy cause they take care of ppl younger than them. good thing..

Next, because going out with GEGE JIEJIE men, i did not go HARI RAYA with my friends, i didnt know they were unhappy and angry with me! They didnt show but i know! u all want like that than so be it.. i go nothing to say, still BFF somemore.. seriously i didnt know this 2 things turn out differently, i guess i got to move on with life, i got no time for children's play. Im having so many problems alrdy i dun wish to add on problems anymore, if u all are so called BFF than understand how i feel and things changes after we graduate, i have co too and u all know co is my priority which means it refers to my CO friends too..

Yesterday, me hui ying, eville, chris, and gang went for BBQ last night. Shocking thing was someone was at our pit when we reached.. hui ying and eville was quite unhappy.. But we cooled down adter that.. we had a nice BBQ and thanks to Eville BBQing all the food.. Surprisingly, there were no streets light on, so i called fan shu jie jie which i think she quite pro at all this and she gave me the hotline and we called and the person say will fix in less than 2 HOURS! omg! haha so we used candle to BBQ.. it was quite romantic! haha.. had fun and i drank a 40% vodka with coke.. omg i first sip sucks, bu subsequently became nice.. aha think i will try again next time.. LOL..

This holiday my life is filled with enjoyment! i love it! thanks to the ppl around me making me living life to the fullest. I appreciate every moment with them.. and Tweety makes me happy everytime, no doubt he is with his stress too.. thanks to those Ge GE jiejie men taking care of me.. EVERYONE JIA YOU!

Happiness..

2010-09-28T10:18:00.002+08:00

What's HAPPINESS? i dun find any HAPPINESS now.. Yes i admit there is, but it comes and go, meaning its very temporily. I dunno what to say, but i am always stuck between friends who have cliques. When i join in, i feel as if im the odd one out. I do not know what i should do, i wish i have my own cliques now so i won't feel that way. I can understand that those people who have cliques don't wish others to like cut in or join or whatsoever.. I can understand that, that's why i don't know where to find happiness. Friends that i made always have own clique.. that ANNOYS me.. Feel so tired.. CO is like one of them, i shall not name but it is a fact why everyone is not very close together because of the cliques and stuff.. nvm talking about it makes me tired too..

Well, i have been sick for the past 1-2 weeks, great thing was i vomitted yesterday in school after eating mac the night before i slept. so my stomach wasn't in a good condition and i ate a plate of fruits for dinner. think i will get well soon..

I seriously think that i am a perfectionist, i want everything to be perfect. If i am working i also expect it to be perfect, i don't like it when people slack and stuff.. Slack awhile is fine, but too much seriously why do you even want to work in the first place? I was quite disappointed, but i shan't say it. Everything will have to be experienced in order to know.

Actually i have nothing to blog about alrdy cause i got no energy.. i feel very tired.. tired tired...
i hope things will change gradually..

I'm too sensitive..

2010-07-26T23:23:00.002+08:00

Everytime i see the ppl around me not in good situation meaning angry, sad, frown or whatsoever that is not normal i get very upset cause its my own problem bah.. partly i will think first is if the person is angry with me, upset with me or what.. another part is when they are sad of course i sad la.. Maybe i think too much.. so i should stop being so sensitive.. And maybe sometimes my mouth should close.. maybe sometimes words i say out may hurt other ppl.. i know myself cause after say liao than realise.. stupid mouth..
I just want the people around me to be happy and im satisfied.. Thats the most satisfying things on earth which keeps my live going on and on.. without close friends or friends i wont survive that long..
I guess its i lack of security bah.. heard to say that those who grew up with single parents are always like that.. and me is i got no mother love so maybe like that sensitive or sth.. And i got no siblings so i treat my close friends like siblings.. I dunno la.. Just want to be DOTE and be Guai and love by ppl.. Thats what i can ask for.. and most is happiness.. Since i cant get it from my family i might as well get it from friends.. Wonder why sometimes i born in this family.. I think too many things happen during this period.. i need a break..

2010-07-25T14:58:00.006+08:00

So long never really update my blog liao...

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY YUN DI NAI NAI..

This few times celebrated co friends birthday.. wonderful time.. it was my nai nai, Yun Di's birthday and cello bass ppl celebrated for her.. haha no worries but i make up for her by celebrating at marvellous cream at ion.. So me, cheryl, yue ling, yun di, koen and teck han done a card for her.. but was XL in size.. me chicken and ah yi decorated the board first.. so maria, koen, teck han, lao fo ye and eTC wrote wishes for her.. Nai Nai sorry.. the celebration not so like celebration only can eat ice cream haha! was busy that 2 weeks.. But i love the drawing of mine.. haha piglet..

Next, it is Chien Wui's birthday.. happy 20th birthday CHIEN WUI!! celebrated her birthday when im like half dead..cause the day before me, lfy, biao ge and nai nai go chicken house stay overnight.. we watched 2 movies till 4am and go back and dye hair and slept at 5.30.. next day woke up at around 8 and get rdy for combine.. so tired!! Had a wonderful day because it was filled with joy and laughter althought aftr ZLS left and combine still goes on i was angry cause of messiness.. so tired!! can wait for food until sleep...

Had a day where me chicken nai nai and biao ge but before that was with a whole gang of co peeps to watch despicable me.. after that alot of them headed back home.. so the 4 of us continue watch the 2nd movie.. we watched hot tub machine.. WTH M18 SHOW! i thought it was nothing.. but than so many R rated scenes lla.. i dunno what happen to me i kept on laughing like a mad guy.. haha! but had fun...

Shall put some conclusions here.. ME! i like to celebrate with a bunch of ppl if there is any celebations or go out.. i dun like to outcast ppl! its very not good.. for example if im going out with chicken i will call my nai nai and alot alot of ppl out out tgt.. celebrate birthday also.. haha more the merrier so that the birthday boy or girl is super happy... thats part of friendship.. Realized when i stepped into poly its so different from secondary school.. the generous way, polite, kind, taking care is missing.. i see selfishness especially.. i wont allow that if im present.. Even if u are my bestest friend or whatsoever.. TAKE NOTE PLUCKING ppl! I WILL MAKE U LIVE AND BONDED AGAIN.. I SWEAR! our tee shirt is on the way.. WAHAHA!

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2010-07-22T00:40:00.001+08:00

This i thought i wont cry anymore... But why must i cry again! Stop being some useless idiot! STop Being An Ass And Stop Crying.. I dont want to be back to my old self again.. But To me the ppl that i love are so impt to me that u cannot leave 1 inch away from me.. Nvm.. suan le.. say so much also no use

The Last Method To Vent Out My Unhappiness

2010-07-13T21:48:00.003+08:00

Eventually, i shall resort to the last method, blogging... Haixx.d. Dam unhappy these few days... it's like my olden days again.. So not me this few days.. Feel so upset and angry and ARGH!
Why?! What happen to me?? Im just sick and tired of everything! HOPE u can get out of my life! Seriously!
today had co performance, but i dont know whether its performance or not, we so not up to standard even i myself is not prepared.. so freaking disappointed! Than NO TEAM WORK! ATTITUDE FAIL! DISCIPLINE NEGATIVE MARKS! I dunno what to say.. one for all all for one.. Cant change it so fast i guess time is needed..
After performance, went another duet rehearsal with guo chuan to rehearse at the japanese thingy.. Still ok than tomorrow have performance liao.. So went back to co room carrying the dam heavy YQ.. Went back co room dam hungry but suddenly remember i havent submit the letter of absence online.. So ask Yun Di help me sign in.. STupid internet lag this time! Than Some ppl make noise say hungry wan go eat go eat when im not done! FUCK! So fed up that until i dont want eat and after they left, i filled up the form myself and i was very fast miracle! Faster sign out and went sectionals with growling stomach dam pissed! reach liao See YQ havent open everytime must wait for ppl to open and take out for them! WTF! My hand is gonna be injured soon.. I cant take it anymore!
Friends are meant to wait for each other and not by caring your ownself! thats so selfish! i dun think u will see me do this to friends! humans are really selfish!!
I shall end my convo here.. boiling.. even worst!

Hello everyone!!

2010-06-29T12:14:00.009+08:00

OH HI! It's been long ever since i blog again.. Many happenings this few months. So i stepped into a new environment with a new bunch of people in polytechnic. Started to miss all my fellow 5N1 classmates as well as my beloved teachers. I wonder how are they doing now although we had some outings but not everyone turned up. I had so much committment that im so busy everyday. Thus, i have less time giving it to my friends. Lets see some of these pictures that happend these few months. I shall post only my happiest time with NYPCO and my fellow 5N1 mates.

This was my outing with some percussion freak people.. We had lots of fun in toyRus... haha1 Extreme Fun although we are not kids anymore. =)

The one beside me is Zi Hui, she is my maid and i call her Maria.

The one beside her is Jing Wei, she's my second maid call Yati.

The one beside her is Siti. She is my pole dance doing all the sexy styles and scaring me..

The one at the right side of the picture her name is li hui, she's my friend got no name for her.. shall think of one.

This was like some random time we decided to go to the arcade near chicken's house at amk. So we had lots and lots of fun there!

I'll introduce the people in the picture.

The one in black her name is Cheryl but we call her chicken.

The one in white her name is Yun Doi. She's my nai nai in short. =)

This picture was taken at popeye at night hehe... My new Family Tree.. This was also a random outing after combine.. So decided to go for supper and we chiong for arcade but in the end closed.. so we went to watch mid-night horror movie.. hehha!!

Shall introduce 3 new people in this picture.

The one beside chicken is Zhen Xin and he's my "cousin" and so call "Mei Yong De Nan Ren"

The one behind him is Charis, she's one of my aunt.

The one beside her is Yue Ling, She is my Ah Yi and her son is Zhen Xin Thats why we are cousins! HAHAHAHA

aNyway i just upload this few only the rest next time than upload.. Right now its time to study my inorganic chemistry and my common test for that is tomorrow.. Luckily maths paper ended yesterday and i can do the questions normally.. HAHA ok bye blog see u tomorrow

Hmm..

2010-01-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

I stay over night at cousin's house.. So much more livlier than own home.. Shyt home lor... Over there's fun man... Vincent kor kor told me about the incident... so i went down to his place to find him than he drive me over lor.. who knows when we reach liao HE NOT AT HOME! lol... it was funny.. hahah than we ate dinner together.. dinner was ok.. haha after that around 11 plus my cousin and 1 dam hungry.. so we ordered MACDONALD!!! we struggled abit in the ordering process cause he cant really eat chicken and seafood.. but nvm la i ordered 1 mc spicy and 1 mc wings.. than mc spicy half half lor... he cannot eat chicken mahh.. mummy sleeping so TOU CHI lor.. hahaha... BUT I WAS SUPER ANGRY!! MC SPICY NOT SPICY MC WINGS LIKE SOME KIND OF COFFEE SHOP FRIED THE CHICKEN! wtf la.. i super pissed.. Grrr spoil my appetite.. ZZZ but nvm... so both vincent kor kor were watching naruto.. actually i wasnt interested.. but than i sat down and watch lor... OMG THE FIGHTING WAS COOL!!! SO I STARTED WATCHING.. BUT NOT EPISODE 1.. I START FROM EPISODE 132 cause we watch 131 le mah. haha anyway.. i finish watching till 143 liao..now waiting for next episode.. in the mean time i will start from episode one.. its super cool.. love it la.. didnt know can watch online for free.. HAHA.. than next day went to remove stitch with cousin lor.. hhah he's my little brother actually.. grew up together mah... hmm he's brave... pei fu pei fu.. so i went back home... facing hell agaih.. i think im going to stay at mummy house before new year eve and new year eve to go market help her loh.. cant wait lor... LIKE THE olden days when i was P6 i also went down to help during new year eve cause we open stall for 24 hour mah.. customer still flooding... anyways.. tomorrow going school for prefect meeting. wanna sleep liao.. nights

I feel like T.T

2010-01-24T00:31:00.003+08:00

I've had co practice.. Im super tired.. cause i went hiking with my 2 friends.. sper tiring.. after that i went to CC reach at 3pm all alone.. So i started to re-arrange the scores, and pack all the scores again.. pack till 6 plus.. chun xi came and thus help me.. than ZK and PJ and SHEENA and SHANNA came.. so i've got more helpers now.. really got to thank ZK alot.. though he's not part of CC but he still helps me.. i really appreciate it! thanks ZK! Today, of ytd was rather a long and tiring day due to hiking and co.. i got to run 3 times to fetch my guest players till my knees went wobbly.. but i beared.. i got no time to ZHAO DAI them so i kind of felt guilty.. haixx.. im super busy.. and tcher is like using the mike.. so disgracing la.. WTH... Today CO was strong but not strong enough so i hope the sectional training can really build up our power... WTF la i was super pissed when zhi hui said to me that tcher say today bass very weak.. WTF la!! zhi hui and i were like blasting out everything.. freak man! my blister already tore and it was last weeks blister stll not healed yet.. when he like that say i dam pek cik.. Right after practice everyone's like chatting and having fun, only me busy with all the papers.. facing all the dam papers and i cant talk to my friends from other places... i really dam fed up that i cant have fun anymore! This is the last time im doing all this... im not going to do the guest player thingy again.. it really can kill me... To prevent same story from going on, i guess after concert i will not go co so often liao.. i super tired liao.. i need to brush up on my yang qin in order to go NAC competition and other good CO's... this FEB i probably joining PA liao.. so i wont really care about TG liao.. but will still be responsible.. haix... im really tired.. i got no one to share a shoulder with.. sharing my duties.. im such a loner... haix... i wish i can really have fun talking to my friends from co and other co's instead of doing stupid things.. i wanna go back to my life!!!

.... LOSS OF WORDS..

2010-01-21T22:19:00.002+08:00

I PUT RED CAUSE IM FRUSTRATED.. BUT B4 PUTTING SOME FRUSTRATING STUFF.. I SAY SOME HAPPY STUFF.. MY BFF AND I GOT A NEW NAME FOR US.. THAT IS BOCOF OR BFOCO.. BEST OF CHINESE ORCHESTRA FRIEND OR BEST FRIEND OF CHINESE ORCHESTRA.. HAHA!! HE CALLED ME ON MSN.. HE ON HIS SPEAKER AND PLAY VIOLIN FOR ME TO HEAR.. LOLS... COOL MAN.. LIVE SHOW... At least there's someone called friend.. lets go something unhappy.. someone suddenly offered help for tomorrow.. mircale.. cause that never happen before.. everytime i ask for help always 'no, no, no'.. dunno why.. am frustrated... tomorrow we meeting at 5pm.. i think da bao mos burger than eat tgt. so i will be meeting lynette and linda and elain ...yay!! can eat tgt..

=.=!!

2010-01-21T20:26:00.002+08:00

THIS FEW DAYS NOTHING SPECIAL TO BLOG ABOUT.. BEEN ROTTING AT HOME.... JUST THAT YESTERDAY I WENT SCHOOL TO SEE PREFECT MEETING.. THAN MR RAJ ASK ME DO VIDEO FOR PREFECT INVESTITURE.. I GUESS ITS OK CAUSE I GOT NOTHING TO DO ALSO.. I FINISHED ALL THE TGCO WORK.. NOW PEI JUN PRINT FOR ME ONLY.. HAHA YEAH MAN.. TOMORROW IS FRIDAY... MY WEEKENDS ARE THE MOST ENJOAYBLE DAYS.. CAUSE I GET TO GO CO AND MEET MY DEAREST FRIENDS AND NEW CO FRIENDS FROM OTHER PARTS OF SINGAPORE.. HAHA TELL U WHAT, I GOT A NEW BFF.. HAHA.. DUNNO WE SEEM TO BE ALIKE IN ALOT OF THINGS.. ESPECIALLY CO.. HAHA HMM BOTH AGREED ON BFF.. HAHA BUT I DUN LIKE THE NAME BFF.. SOUNDS LIKE COPYRIGHT.. WILL THINK OF A BETTER NICK.. THATS ALL FOR TODAY! BYE!

stress but happy day...

2010-01-17T22:52:00.006+08:00

Today is a good day to blog... Today i woke up at 9.30 wash up, bath and went to mr neelan place... i dropped at parkway to get my pocket file.. suddenly stomach pain until cannot take it... so i faster run to shopping centre use the toilet... and popular is so far away from parkway parade... so i beared for awhile.. in the end... BOOMz.. so comfortable.. hahaha than i went back popular to get my pocket file... than i went to his house cause his mum, sis and him invited me for a lunch at his place.. HAHA... his mum and sis cooked sumptous indian food .. its not really indian food but just some home-cooked food lor... his mum knows i like her eggplant chilli prawn and she cooked it for me... haha.. so i was the chief guest today... his sis help me take rice, he help me scoop all the food... there's briyani chicken, my fav prawn, salad and a bowl of soup.... hahaha super delicious.. i had 2 rounds... hmmm.... after that he say wanna bring me for ice cream but than drag till 5 also havent go.. i was playing with ANGUS!! MY DARLING DOGGY!! SO CUTE AND NAUGHTY... so i decided to leave to go CC for meeting liao.. so sorry co friends that i didnt turn up for RC practice cause of this lunch lor.. so lynette bought me milk tea... than linda dropped my straw.. ZZ!! haha meeting started and i can feel the power.. haha!! after meetng we were super high... laughing like hell as we walked towards amk hub to have our dinner.. lynette treat mos burger... but 1 burger not enough for me so i ordered 2 burgers.... haha laughed like mad ALSO... dunno whats wrong with linda ... so crazy nowadays.. hahaha... this coming friday i got to go down CC to print scores for my guest players liao... just pray that they turn up.. tomorrow must sms all ppl liao.. haha tomorrow i going school find mr fatty neelan to help him fill up some nomination form for youth education award... he la.. forget to type the document make me go another trip to school again... but he say will bring me for ice cream tomorrow.. just hope so... i wanna spend more time with him... maybe next time no chance liao.. may god bless!! good night!! tomorrow will be a better day!

OMG I LOVE BLCO AND TGCO!!!

2010-01-17T00:26:00.002+08:00

I LOVE BLCO AND TGCO!!! THEY ROCK1!!! TODAY'S PERFORMANCE ALTHOUGH IS AT SOME IDIOTIC PLACE BUT THAN THE WHOLE ORCHESTRA IS SO TIGHT AND STRONG BECAUSE OF PERCUSSION!!! BLCO U ROCK ALTHOUGH ALMOST ALL GUEST PLAYERS!! WOOHOO!! after tat elain mummy, lynette, linda and i share a cab and eileen, zheng kang and pei jun share a cab and we cab down to TGCO.. we thought teachers not gonna be happy but heard that he's not coming today.. so we phew... haha today i went to double bass.. though im still not very pro.. but than i will go to RC every siunday to close myself up and train very hard.. i dun care.. i want our bass to be super strong.. cause lynette, elain mummy, zhi hui and me are 1 big bass team.. we work togther help each other out when anyone's facing any difficulties... i just hate some ppl making comments la.. idiotic ppl.. dunno whats bond lor... u are also far better than no where... when my guest players come kick u off liao... haha!! hmm love co man!! dunno how to live without it.......... tomorrow RC gosh... haha im gonna start training... HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEI JUN!! HAHA TODAY WE WENT TO COFFEE SHOP CELEBRATED FOR HER... HAHA BOND AGAIN...!! i was like calling linda 'halo halo target appeared' haha excited la.. somemore when we were in the cab we were screaming and laughing like mad.. that was once we were so high!! woohoo!! i like it!! LOVE EVERYONE!!

sick and tired...

2010-01-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

I am so sick and tired of handling the concert liao.. calling those guest players already cause me half my life gone.. Seriously im doing something which im not myself... ZZZ people may feel that im irritating cause im like reminding them... But than no harm right? Yes i have ever been in the position whereby people ask me go help... i wanna go back to my life whereby i can have fun at CO.... No fan nao... haixx i really wish those guest players can understand how i feel and dun back out the last minute...
today nth to blog about.. been thinking and designing our clique shirt... still thinking of our concert stuff and concert stuff and concert stuff....i havent choose the songs yet... haix....

2010-01-12T23:06:00.003+08:00

Hi there... i think i shan't blog about results.. talking about it makes me feel like crying... i cant share joy with my good friends around me.... im super upset.. cause their face so sad and i cant do anything to help.. i dunno what to do.. super confused.. i tried to be happy and smile... but i think they thought i proud or something? I was just trying to cheer them up.. i guess its ok la... haixx.. nvm shan't say about it...
shall blog about TGCO... a TGCO camp will be coming up in june and i will be designing clique shirt so we can wear it during the camp like jamie said.. cool right? right now i think too much about guest players and didnt really care about the performances that our own members are progressing.. so right now.. i will put the guest players aside.. i will start training our own members to the maximum... throwing them practice songs and intensive trainings... i hope they dun get bored because this is the process towards success by practising and practising.. i know its bored playing the same thing over and over again but practice makes perfect.. i hope they can understand and practice like hell... JY TGCO.. god pls help me... i hope all my guest players will turn up

TODAY CO WAS FUN!

2010-01-10T00:20:00.002+08:00

Wow!! im so happy today at co... i'm starting to feel the feeling as before again!!!! OMG.. maybe because of my mindset bah... I cant believe im the asst/student conductor when i dunno how to do those signs and all although i know abit of music... I will try my best to keep improving till the day of our concert in July.. HAHA!! i cant wait man.. right now i got to plan triaining schedule and maybe sent out a proposal to have a co camp a so call intensive camp practice... Its cool man.. I'm like in charge of so many things... especially music parts.... got to deal with scores.. got to deal with different sections... haha im just happy.. we are planning to do clique shirt!!

I'm gonna start afresh now...

2010-01-08T23:25:00.003+08:00

I deleted all my blog post.. cause i have decided to start afresh... Forget all those unhappy things... Today i went out to meet hui min to find lynette at her workplace to have dinner together.. so we decided to dine in at THE SOUP SPOON.. i didnt know there's set meal... haha although its a set but i still dont feel full enough.. before that hui min and i went to buy takoball... so delicious.. worth to queue.. so crowded... than we went to plaza sing to star hub to help hui min mother repair sim card... wasted trip cause no hui min's mother's IC... haha so we walked back to ION to find lynette... On our way... i was nagging at her about her PIPA.. asking her not to give up and ways to improve.. and she kept saying no time... So i managed to convince her... and tell her stop tALKING about 'TIME' the problem lies with u whether u can manage anot.. haha so went back ION and supported lynette by getting a large ice cream.. but she insisted on treating us.. so we said ok... she so call cooked it for us.. we chose macha green tea flavour! my favourite!! haha... so we went to the place and sat down... Eat liao say good bye to her.. will see her tomorrow... Than i pei hui min back to amk her house there also can tke bus go home... so we chatted awhile.. So i brought out the issue about me again... So i learnt sth from her today... HAHA... i reflected in the bus... i guess the word 'petty' is hanging around me which makes me a dislikeful friend... But i changed alot liao... but still got more to go.. So firstly i got to say

SORRY TO:
LYNETTE
LINDA
JAMIE
SHANNA
HUI MIN
NAW
AND WHOEVER IM ATROCIOUS TO...
I WANNA SAY SORRY TO U ALL.. BECAUSE AFTER REFLECTION.. I REALISE THE PROB DOESNT LIES WITH U ALL ANYMORE.. IT LIES WITH ME.. SOME SMALL MATTERS ARE REALLY SMALL AND I BLOW IT UP.. IM SO SORRY GUYS.. IM REALLY REALLY SORRY.. GIVE ME TIME... IM SURE THINGS WILL BE COME BETTER... FOR THE TIME BEING I WILL NOT LEAVE TGCO.. BECAUSE BEFORE THAT I WANNA LEAVE BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT THE PROB LIES WITH U ALL.. BUT ITS ME... SO GIVE ME TIME K.. AS FOR NAW... I WILL TALK TO U ON MONDAY WHEN WE GET OUR RESULTS.. CHEERS!!! TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY